So what happened in the past to make me love such a thing.
School? Kids weren't very nice to me and teachers rarely saw my abilities.
home life? I was ignored and didn't really like my family too much.
Friends? I had friends, but my best friend is my boyfriend.
I started realizing my abilities in high school, the kids stopped teasing me by about 12th grade and my family finally gave me attention once I reached high school.
You realize yourself in high school, but I only realized my abilities.
I realized I could make films or work with computers.
The internet and even film school helped me realize, I am not social.
Yes, I'm shy, but I also don't like being social.
Of course the other part to this was serving and feeling drained afterwards.